Focus on two things and God that I only believe in this world
First thing is needed to focus that makes the band of IELTS over 7.0 each subtest. Another one is skills to render me a advanced c# builder. Additional part is money. Reality in the field of SI which is what I choose is not good enough than I think. All the huddles can be solved by things that come from the skills what I have: Langauge and code building skills and dgree for them. More reading, more producing them myself with all of my effort, those efforts are going to keep me in safe on this unfair and scary society. Believe God, and follow God's will, then pray all the time, after all God will liesten and let me do what I want with God's will.